This is my life

So I haven’t been on here since, idk, probably a month or so. I’ve been busy studying for s.a.t.s, hspas, and ive been at work and doing my newest photography project( perspective). It’d due march 13th. ONCE that day is over I am going to go crazy with photography/work/school/and working out.

Working out= I’m restarting insanity. I’m so close to being almost cut its unreal(ill post a before after pic later).

Work= yeah that’s self explanatory

School= I’ve been studying mad hardcore so I can get good grades and tis working. 

Photography= This is the big one I want to talk about. I thought about it a lot in the past month. I want to get known. Not only in jersey, but EVERYWHERE. I’m going to start submitting my stuff to magazines and contests. Editing wise. I want to cut on that. I want to become that good were all I really need is amazing lighting, amazing models, and amazing compositions. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. I will not copy any of these ideas of the internet. I am done seeing people copy things like the melting crayon shit. It’s over done. Looks cool. Just not copying any ideas. I WILL BE ALL ORIGINAL. I’m probably going to buy a new lens then a new camera. Also I want to be booked with shoots. I want to know that on march 25th I have a shoot then 2 days later I have another one. I will become known and I know that for fact. Not to be cocky, i just have this strong feeling that when I put my mind to it, I will succeed.

IFP( imagine filming and photography) I want us to get huge as well. I’m going to try to find people that need weddings photographers and advertisements. I want us to be insane out of our minds.

All I ever think about now is how I should get better in photography. I look at people that are super famous and that are sponsored by nikon or canon and I want to be like that. I want people too be like “THIS IS THE GUY WE ARE LOOKING FOR” when it comes to photography. ALL I REALLY WANT ARE MODELS. I want to build a portfolio like no other portfolio. I want photos that absolutely stun people and that they have no effects on them. I feel like a bitch cause I get nervous to ask people I don’t know to be models. But I shouldnt because if I ask them to be a model, they should be flattered. Im gunna start fucking shit up again and not try to be the best but I WILL BE THE BEST.  Im going to start thinking like a model photographer, get fans( like legit air fans, back drops, crazy lighting, no effects, just raw image.

day 18. Time. I think everyone I know doing this project is did something about time. But the way I see time is quite different from everyone’s thought of time. Most people I know just blow away time like it never existed. Oh lets sleep till 4pm or lets just sit and watch tv. Yeah, those are relaxing at times but I still hate wasting my time. I try to use my time wisely. I’m that guy that wakes up at 8-9am and uses time correctly. I use most of my time in school, working out, friends and most importantly photography. I want to add more time to photography. I always have this thought that never leaves. That I will become a famous/pro photographer. If I goof off or slack off, what will I accomplish? That has been my goal ever since I was 5 years old and I put 12 years into photography. Just wait till I have 30 years off photography. Time is something not too waste. You all are wasting it on stupid things that matter. Why dont you guys use your time wisely?

Day 16. I have created my own path to photography

Day 15. Life is starting to work. All the gears are in place and finally working. Everything in life is good. I’m working harder in photography and the results are showing. Also just in general Ive been doing the right things that are making me happy.

Day 14, 2 weeks into the project. My goals and thoughts are being held back. I feel like my ideas are being held back by the people around me. I want to get things done and progress. I can’t be held back. If I am it slows me down and brings me down one step. I can’t let this happen to me. I need to be the best and to be first.

Day13. Studying. This year I changed a lot. One thing I started doing is studying. I never really studied for a test. But this year I started to study and I’ve been doing so good in school. Getting A’s and B’s is awesome. My parents are helping pay for my car, but I have to pay them back monthly, Which I don’t mind. Now I am studying for my s.a.t.s so I can go to a good college and become the best photographer there is.

day 12. The eye of the photographer. I actually thought of this idea a long time ago. I want this as a tattoo but I felt like I should make it into a photo also. At first I was making my eye into a clock but then I realized people already did that, so I made it aperture blades. My ideas are never seen. No one can really understand my ideas unless I show them visuals. I hate how everyone these days copy each others ideas. One person has a photoshoot with paint on there face, everyone else starts doing that. How come no one tries to be original anymore? I try my hardest to be different and creative. This is the exact reason I stay away from tumblr. I dont want you’re stupid ripped off ideas

Day 11. Today I went car searching. Luckily tomorrow I am going to go check out a dodge charger. I am so excited. Once I have my own car I will try to plan more photoshoots outdoors! I can’t wait. I don’t understand how people can live without a car

Day 10. This is my very first guitar. Most people look at this guitar and think “oh, peter put random ideas onto this guitar.” Well you are wrong. This guitar has so many different meanings. It has so many inside jokes in it and so many loved quotes/breakdowns/ and in general things I love on this guitar. Its even in my favorite tuning still to this day. I will always cherish this guitar. Her name is Heather( no reason her name is heather. I just liked the name)

Day 9. This is my brothers sculpture. It represents an “invisible man”. That is what I feel like. Even though I am 6 foot 8 and basically everyone sees me, I feel invisible in this world. I want to be that kid that is known. Not to be cocky or conceded or whatever, I want to be a big shot in photography. I want to be in newspapers, i want people to recognize my art and call me to do shoots. Only thing to do is work harder and harder.

Day8. Today is a rather confusing/upsetting day. I’m done wasting my time on you. I’m done wasting time in general. I should really just worry about the 5 most important things. School, Photography, IFP, Lifting and Friends. I try and try to be with you and just nothing happens. Yeah it upsets me, but, I really should just do what makes me happy. You’re nothing but problems in my mind.

Day 7. So I have had these masks chillen in my room for the past millennium. I did start a story with these once but it never really went anywhere. I realized I want to incorporate them into my 365 day story. I’m not calling this a challenge, cause too me I want a story not a challenge.

Everyone thinks these masks are happy and sad. That’s all it shows. Well too me I changed the meaning. The “happy” mask is a creepy, serial killer type emotion. The “sad” mask shows suicide, grief, and heart broken-ness(not even a word, but it is now) So every now and then instead of showing my emotions in pictures. Ill have the masks show them. They will have some sort of names soon.

Day 6. Lifting is a big part of my life. I lift as much as possible. I don’t really care what you guys say about me but yeah I love to go to the gym. Whenever I’m mad or not in a good mood, the gym is the place to go. I found a whole new workout that my friend and I are starting. It also means alot to me because I used to weigh about 250 and now im 215. So i just want to keep this going

really late day 5. (Yesterday) It was possibly one of the best days of this year yet. I hung out with some of my best friends and saw the front bottoms. I talked to them and possibly one day we’ll do there photoshoots and a music video for them. Still, it was a fun all day roadtrip/adventure